The emotional component of making art.

Breakthroughs in art come from times of severe emotion. It is impossible to do important and moving work without that severe emotion.  After I posted these words to my Facebook status update, a friend asked me what precipitated this breakthrough. It is a very important and layered question.
One of my therapists gave me a sheet of paper that showed four emotions and had all other emotions stemming off of the root four. There are plenty of variations of this concept that can be found, but the basis is the same. We basically have a small number of true emotions with an infinite variety of each.
Every artist tends to produce their work based on major emotions. We use these emotions to create what we envision. Some use happy thoughts some use darker thoughts. It has been my experience that it doesn’t really matter what gets me to the root emotion I use, just so long as I get there and it’s a strong emotion.
My work is based on the struggles I’ve encountered along my life being a transgender woman. Having to grow up in a rural Maine town and not understand who I was based on societies input and structure. Lots of Anger, Sadness, Grief, Worry, Fear etc. These emotions can be grouped together fairly tightly. Many life situations can give rise to similar or the same emotions. Losing an important person in your life due to either death, divorce, breakup. Losing a job. Losing some sort of security. Major illness or disease. Big accident. Plus plenty more that aren’t right on the top of my head.
It doesn’t matter what gets you to the place you need to be. You need to get back to those emotions. When you are deeply feeling them again, that is all that matters. Your brain will place you exactly where you need to be as it isn’t really distinguishing how you got there, just that you are there.
This is all well and good, but emotion alone doesn’t get you there. I already have a direction for my work. A story I am telling. For me to figure out that story and start it, I had to be feeling it. But now that I have a direction and a focus, the emotion that gets me there can come from a variety of situations. The other part of this puzzle is being prepared for when emotion comes to you. You need to be ready to use it.
I have lists of ideas. Lists of things I want to try. A plan of where I want my work to go. A cache of images from which to work from. I also have learned the technical side of my craft and it is fairly engraved within me. Without these items, it’s hard to harness the emotion which you feel.
When the time hit for me, I just sat down and worked. It was a few days after the worst of the emotion that lead me to where I needed to be. I had perspective. I could actually think again. The emotion however, was still very raw inside of me. So, I sat down and turned on the music that fosters my creativity. I had a beer. loosened my mind and went to work.
I already had a few files of potential images to use. I had a swirl of ideas in my head. Looking at the images one or two started to call me to open them and work with them. So I did. I let my emotions and my brain work together to come up with something and the results were a leap forward in the evolution of my work. All the planning, all the technical stuff I learned, and the emotions I was feeling at the time converged to help me produce something new, something that innovated my own work. I could not have done it without a single piece of the puzzle.
As you can see, there is a lot to the process and I’m not saying that this is everything. It’s complicated and takes dedicating yourself to creating work and being the best you can be. Being focused and not getting distracted. Hopefully, I will be able to show my new direction and some new work in the near future.

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Big Bend National Park

I spent a number of days in Austin, TX with some friends and on my way back to southern New Mexico I took a small detour and spent a few nights at Big Bend NP. Big Bend is quickly becoming one of my favorite parks. It is large, diverse, rugged and remote. This marks my third visit and I total about 8 days in the park now. I think I’m about half way through my first round of exploring. I hope you enjoy some of the images I came back with from this trip!

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Here are some quick images from my recent two trips. One from Death Valley NP, Mojave Desert National Preserve and Home to Alamogordo and the Tularosa Basin. The other trip to Big Bend NP in Texas.

 

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Winter Solstice…

I do not belong to any organized religion. I believe in nature. I believe in the inter-connectivity of all things on, and including, this Earth. For this, one of the most special times of year that turns our attention to the power of light, I have chosen to release new images.

A new series! Love Letters from Camp.

“JULY 16, 2012, Monday Evening
My Love, Rachel,
I realized today that the real love letters I may have for you lie not in my words, but in the images I make here.”

And, with thanks to famed photographers JP Caponigro and his father Paul Caponigro. JP is my mentor and also the reason Rachel and I found each other, as we met at his Santa Fe workshop. Paul for his corny words “shoot from your heart” which turned out to be anything but corny. His delivery of those words needs a little work though. ;)

Here is the gallery link to Love Letters from Camp. All images were made this past summer while I was at my little cabin in the remote western Maine mountains and waterways of Pond in the River.

Also, here is a link to eleven new images in Proserpina – a Self-Portrait. These are images of regeneration of a soul. These images go hand in hand with my Love Letters from Camp as they were taken at the same time, in the same places.

 

Love Letters from Camp V

 

Proserpina – a Self-Portrait CXXXVIII

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My Birthday!

Yes, today is my Birthday. I wanted to commemorate it by showing you all three images I captured this summer while living in my remote Maine cabin. These images will be part of my Proserpina body of work. One of the reasons I love self-portraiture is that it shows the story of my life and my transition. A birthday is as wonderful of a time as any to reflect on the year and all the changes that have occurred in my life, over my lifetime thus far. I have also included an image of me from a mere few years ago just for kicks.

 

 

 

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Gallery

Images of NM and AZ

This gallery contains 11 photos.

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Spaces I Walk: In Between XII

 

The last in this series of images.Soon I will post a gallery on my web page with all the images.

 

 

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Spaces I Walk: In Between XI

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Spaces I Walk: In Between X

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Spaces I Walk: In Between IX

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